Book 12

So after i left Kirke, we went out on a journey home. I don't know what i what to do, do i want to go home to my family and responsibility or should i stay out here. I know the choice is there but i really have put it far back into my mind. I am scared that t will come out and force me to choose, because honestly i don't know what i am going to do, and that is frightening. Generally people want to go home to their family but i don't think i want to...